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11/15/25
1. reel around the fountain - the smiths 
2. you’re not the only one i know - the sundays
3. ceremony - galaxie500
4. never had no one ever - the smiths
5. you are a light - pavement
6. take me home tonight - eddie money
7. gold day - sparklehorse
studio day today. not really getting anywhere. feeling dumb. feeling bored. i’m all scatterbrained all the time. ive listened to the sparklehorse song maybe sixty times today. no joke. i took the train all the way out to somerville earlier and put it on repeat and fell asleep. then i walked around in the cold until i got too annoyed and had to get the fuck out of somerville. anyway. making sketchbooks and working on my drawings. trying to stay out of my own way. 
пусть каждый день будет золотым
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10/22/25
1. indie rokkers - mgmt 
2. this will be our year - the zombies 
3. everyday - buddy holly 
4. earth moon transit - duster
5. stars - hum
6. where you’ll find me - nmh
7. fever dream - spirit of the beehive
i’m seeing little shards of god everywhere. i’m tired almost all of the time but i dont even care about that. my days are blending together into a big strawberry milkshake with two cherries on top. everything is just so sweet. sometimes i really think i am the luckiest girl on planet earth. 

listen. look. right here. i exist. im alive. i exist. daisy chain. cinderblock. crown of thorns. holes in drywall. missing teeth. driving range. tethered. washing machine. tender heart. sweetest thing. i exist. im alive. call me back. . . 
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9/25/25
1. young - mat kerekes 
2. losing a whole year - third eye blind
3. failure by design - brand new 
4. awkward - dance gavin dance
5. run2 - new order
6. satan is your master - pill friends
7. supersonic - oasisnull






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7/31/25
1. talk tonight - oasis
2. goth star - health 
3. the chain - fleetwood mac 
4. jaws theme swimming - brand new
5. dramamine - modest mouse 
6. wild west selfishness - seahaven
7. relax / divide - hail the sun
i’m glad that july is finally over. it’s been so hot i can’t sleep. my days are startng to get really fuzzy. a gorgeous boy hurt my feelings. what else is new. i’m feeling like a teenager again. in the bad way this time. it sounds way more dramatic than it actually is. my heart has just been through a lot lately. i’m trying to protect it but i think i’m just hurting it more. nothing bad is happening to me. im getting weirder every day and that’s a blessing. these songs are keeping my feet on the ground. everything is fine
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6/27/25
1. neon moon - cigs after sex
2. summer skin - death cab 
3. the girl - city and color 
4. green eyes - coldplay
5. the gold - manchester orchestra
6. the glass - tssf [ACOUSTIC VERSION!!] 
7. spirit desire - tigers jaw 
i’ve been listening to these ones over and over and over and over and it’s making me sick. i wish i was at elm street on the swingset with ana. i think im going to become really annoying when i get back to gardner. sometimes i feel like i was never supposed to leave home. i think i need to get back on tumblr. reconnect with nature.  . . . anyway. what is meant to find you will, and what isn’t meant for you will leave but it will almost kill you first. 
let me chill                                                    
               every day i get to open two presents. . . MY EYES! 
                                                                           ok lvoe u byeee 
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6/13/25
1. death of a strawberry - dance gavin dance 
2. hiding - modern baseball 
3. control - citizen 
4. tiny raindrop - balance and composure
5. where you’ve been hiding - oso oso
6. direction - mat kerekes 
7. burning down the nicotine armoire pt.2 - dgdlast week i spent a lot of time on busses, on trains, and in cars. boston to athens, athens to cincinnati, cincinnati to flatbush, flatbush to manhattan, manhattan to virginia beach, virginia beach to boston. i listened to songs i’ve loved for a long time and i was dreaming about living on the same street as my best friend again. mostly it made me feel old. this week morale is low. i’m trying to have a good attitiude about everything but the state of the world is wearing me down. i’m letting myself sit in this feeling for now. i think it’s fine. 
better days are coming. 
god is good all the time. 
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5/19/25
1. between the bars - elliot smith
2. northern sky - nick drake
3. anthem for a 17 yr old grl - B.S.S. 
4. for emma, forever ago - bon iver
5. in dreams - roy orbison 
6. manning fireworks - mj lenderman
7. in undertow - alvvays  songs for the week ahead. i am busy busy busy. . . i’m ready for summer. my heart is broken into little pieces and i’m feeling tired - but i’m trying to stay hopeful. i want to go home and sleep in my moms bed today. im going through changes. i want to sleep on a big rock next to the ocean. i want someone to brush my teeth for me. i want to go swimming. i keep having dreams about being an old lady. it makes me want to cry. i hope you are feeling fine.


 
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