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whistle while you work
7/31/25
1. talk tonight - oasis
2. goth star - health
3. the chain - fleetwood mac
4. jaws theme swimming - brand new
5. dramamine - modest mouse
6. wild west selfishness - seahaven
7. relax / divide - hail the sun
i’m glad that july is finally over. it’s been so hot i can’t sleep. my days are startng to get really fuzzy. a gorgeous boy hurt my feelings. what else is new. i’m feeling like a teenager again. in the bad way this time. it sounds way more dramatic than it actually is. my heart has just been through a lot lately. i’m trying to protect it but i think i’m just hurting it more. i say i dont think about it all the time but really i do. nothing bad is happening to me. i am learning to live with myself. im getting weirder every day and that’s a blessing. these songs are keeping my feet on the ground. everything is fine
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6/27/25
1. neon moon - cigs after sex
2. summer skin - death cab
3. the girl - city and color
4. green eyes - coldplay
5. the gold - manchester orchestra
6. the glass - tssf [ACOUSTIC VERSION!!]
7. spirit desire - tigers jaw
i’ve been listening to these ones over and over and over and over and it’s making me sick. i wish i was at elm street on the swingset with ana. i think im going to become really annoying when i get back to gardner. sometimes i feel like i was never supposed to leave home. i think i need to get back on tumblr. reconnect with nature. . . . anyway. what is meant to find you will, and what isn’t meant for you will leave but it will almost kill you first.
let me chill nothing bad is happening to me.
every day i get to open two presents. . . MY EYES!
ok lvoe u byeee
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6/13/25
1. death of a strawberry - dance gavin dance
2. hiding - modern baseball
3. control - citizen
4. tiny raindrop - balance and composure
5. where you’ve been hiding - oso oso
6. direction - mat kerekes
7. burning down the nicotine armoire pt.2 - dgdlast week i spent a lot of time on busses, on trains, and in cars. boston to athens, athens to cincinnati, cincinnati to flatbush, flatbush to manhattan, manhattan to virginia beach, virginia beach to boston. i listened to songs i’ve loved for a long time and dreaming about living on the same street as my best friend again. mostly it made me feel old. this week morale is low. i’m trying to have a good attitiude about everything but the state of the world is wearing me down. i’m letting myself sit in this feeling for now. i think it’s fine.
better days are coming.
god is good all the time.
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5/19/25
1. between the bars - elliot smith
2. northern sky - nick drake
3. anthem for a 17 yr old grl - B.S.S.
4. for emma, forever ago - bon iver
5. in dreams - roy orbison
6. manning fireworks - mj lenderman
7. in undertow - alvvays
songs for the week ahead. i am busy busy busy. . . i’m ready for summer. my heart is broken into little pieces and i’m feeling tired - but i’m trying to stay hopeful. i want to go home and sleep in my moms bed today. im going through changes. i want to sleep on a big rock next to the ocean. i want someone to brush my teeth for me. i want to go swimming. i keep having dreams about being an old lady. it makes me want to cry. i hope you are feeling fine.
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